The date-a-base sits neglected. There has been no activity of late and the 2 who remain do not draw my interest. It’s stagnant. The last week has sent me back to the old, needier dating patterns, maybe as a result of a string of near-misses in the dating world. Who knows. For the last two days I’ve been corresponding with a faceless, married man on OKCupid- he’s straight up about what he wants and I stated my lack of interest in (another) relationship with a married man. And yet, he emailed and I emailed back. He’s bright and writes well… and that is enough to keep me in ‘eager’ mode. I started drilling him with questions last night, knowing I had nothing to lose, and his response served to keep me hooked. “A waterfall of inquisitions. I like it. “ Then he referenced an old movie quote. Sigh. I’m a sucker for that kind of stuff. And, it was something that drew me to the last married man-he knew it and played to it, I would guess.
So, when I went to bed I asked for (Not really a prayer) some clarity around what I was doing and seeking, paired with a stronger focus on work and Me. I woke up alert and ready to go. As the pot of coffee was brewing I wrote this guy and talked about the hard, cold reality. I was succinct, something I’m often not, and didn’t cushion it in evasive stuff. It was a polite, but firm No. He’s replied inviting me to be irresponsible at any time but I’m ignoring that (even though I would love a good tumble right about now). It was fun to banter back and forth and I got to learn a little about the workings of someone intentionally seeking infidelity.
This whole Man:Woman thing never ceases to amaze me.