The date-a-base sits neglected. There has been no activity of late and the 2 who remain do not draw my interest. It’s stagnant. The last week has sent me back to the old, needier dating patterns, maybe as a result of a string of near-misses in the dating world. Who knows. For the last two days I’ve been corresponding with a faceless, married man on OKCupid- he’s straight up about what he wants and I stated my lack of interest in (another) relationship with a married man. And yet, he emailed and I emailed back. He’s bright and writes well… and that is enough to keep me in ‘eager’ mode. I started drilling him with questions last night, knowing I had nothing to lose, and his response served to keep me hooked. “A waterfall of inquisitions. I like it. “ Then he referenced an old movie quote. Sigh. I’m a sucker for that kind of stuff. And, it was something that drew me to the last married man-he knew it and played to it, I would guess.
So, when I went to bed I asked for (Not really a prayer) some clarity around what I was doing and seeking, paired with a stronger focus on work and Me. I woke up alert and ready to go. As the pot of coffee was brewing I wrote this guy and talked about the hard, cold reality. I was succinct, something I’m often not, and didn’t cushion it in evasive stuff. It was a polite, but firm No. He’s replied inviting me to be irresponsible at any time but I’m ignoring that (even though I would love a good tumble right about now). It was fun to banter back and forth and I got to learn a little about the workings of someone intentionally seeking infidelity.
This whole Man:Woman thing never ceases to amaze me.
I think that was a wise move. Write down all that you learned and write a book (fiction!)
Sadly, the book is probably half written but I seem unable to get myself to work on it. Fictionalizing it would help.
Strong coffee and clarity are good. Books are too!
you are so right. Early morning is always my more practical time, it would seem.