I’m such an idiot sometimes and this morning I’m in full discovery and disclosure… and it’s about to ruin the day. Because, as we all know, once you get irritated about one thing it’s easy for every thing else to go to hell in a handbasket.
I’m volunteering for a local nonprofit tonight, to pour beer tonight; it could rain, it’s hot as hell and I’ll be standing up, in the heat and direct sun, from 5:15 PM until 8 PM. Ugh. I volunteered. And, by 5 PM I’ll have my “isn’t this fun” hat on and it’ll be fine. But, right now I’m wishing I’d said no.
And, I volunteered to go help “Mike” with a new puppy- so I’m driving down there on Sunday to spend 2 nights helping w/ this new thing. And, I should have said no, that I had too much work to do and didn’t want to spend gas money for a man who isn’t going to advance my goals and objectives. How’s that for harsh and overly objective? But, I offered and I’ve committed so I’ll do it. And, it’ll be fine. I’m on the fence about him and this won’t really help…although living through a few sleepless nights together will certainly test our ‘niceness’.
So, as I kick myself this morning everything else seems wrong. I weigh 3 lbs. more than I did a few days ago. The blouse had mysterious stains on the sleeve. My kitchen is a mess and the cats are underfoot. And, on and on and on…………
So as I eat my Raisin Bran Crunch in jeans and a camisole (so as not to prematurely wrinkle newly ironed, stained white linen top) I will say a mantra of love and compassion and acceptance. Take a deep breath and take my blood pressure medicine. Oh, yeah.. And evoke the spirit of Julian of Norwich. “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.”